i wish you could just get out of my life.

i noe pple's priorities and values conflict, but i din noe it wld conflict that much.

and then i ended up helping pple who scored better than me pull themselves up.
cus i noe at that very point, they need someone to be there really, even if they dun say anything or do anything, jus being there is way good enuff.

but certain pple jus dun understand that.
they jus abandon.
and its absolutely upsetting for pple who really needed them to be there.


i felt as if i were dropping all the way down into a bottomless pit,

i felt as if i were the only one in an empty world,

i felt as if i'm not even worthy as a friend.


and for me who value friendship so much, and always trying to be a good friend,

it hurts so much...


for the first time, i felt myself being used.


actually i nvr minded being used by my friends,
in fact i always dun mind going the extra mile for them

provided that it is worth it... to me

but for the very first time in my life, i felt that i totally devoted my concern for nothing.
nothing at all.

im not even feeling as devastated for my results when im supposed to.
that was bcus my friends were always there for me.

but today, i looked...



and there was no one

my house stinks lol
apparently my living room is absolutely empty right now cus jus finish renovating the floor and painting the walls

and i kind of like it better than when its packed i dunno why =)
so when i reach home and dumped my bag in my room, i jus wen jumping ard in the living room and lying on the still-quite-dusty floor, pretending the whole space is mine.

weird but i like huge empty spaces
but i like to be packed and cozy too

im weird yeah? lol

im waiting for sat, to play candle and sparkles.
lol actually the point wasn't to play candle and sparkles, it was actually to play together with the frisbee gang =)
been damn long since we went out together, though we always hang out after sch somewhat.
but im still looking forward to it, though it isn't exactly much planned HAHA

prelims make me think i might really goanna fail As (touch wood)

haix and make me realise how screwed it will be if u actually screw up.

cus u wun be able to get the uni and the course u wan,

and join the sport u wanna join,

which is like main point of going uni,

and basically u will end up nowhere.



can any genius teach me,

how to get from u to a in one month's time?

cus i desperately need that 3As.




On another note,

can't believe wad certain pple are doing right now.

its jus simply crazy.



maybe its really falling head over heels?

but its a bit too much eh, esp at this point of time.



im jus hoping u will realise soon enough to stop, b4 u get badly hurt.

but maybe going through that process will make u learn...

that he isn't exactly the guy that u tot he was,

and that this relationship isn't going the way that it is supposed to be.



for the male side,

i really dunno wad the hell u're doing.

but if i really catch you playing someone's feelings,

u're goanna get it from me.

hah i see everyone posting abt last day...


theres hell a lot of things going through my mind though i really wan to get rid of all of them so i can finally concentrate on As.

last day was fun no doubt, and for the once time, i tink we are really thanking our teachers from the bottom of our hearts, rather than jus doing it cus its teachers' day. took lots of photos, had a lot of fun with my class for our veh las floorball session.

joined the jnrs for frisbee pickup after that, though its like the snrs seemed more enthu wanting to play, and its heartwarming to see them back on the field again.

im a little scared i think.
im scared that through this nex month and few weeks' of mugging, we'll drift apart, since we'll all probably go mug by ourselves...
im scared to lose that little interactions we haf during sch time, whether it is meeting in the morning for a short bit of gossips, muggin after sch, niao-ing the jnrs, joining for pickups, or even the sounds of frisbee dropping in the central plaza which could even be heard fomr the reading room, other pple might think its noisy, but to me, it was so pleasing to the ear. its as if calling me and sying, 'hey, we're always down here waiting for u!'
and then everything jus seems like its goanna vanish to nothing.

yeah no doubt i'll go bac after As, but...
will everyone else too?
at least not everyone that i treasured so much will, that im sure.

hate to keep having to think so much, maybe cus i've been sacrifising relationships too much for studying.
makes me start to wonder if its worh it
and start doubting all my fwens if they thought it was worth it.

frisbee and fwens could always distract me from all that shit thinking
but mugging couldn't     =(


good luck my friends.

am i being superficial to my friends?

i don't want to cus thats not being true to myself.

and friends are way too much of a sacrifice...



but sometimes, i don't get that same true personality from the person back,

or rather i get superficial responses.

and i hate it cus that isn't true friendship anymore...



i hate to be superficial to my friends,

unless they are the same to me,

cus i just can't be true to them bac.

maybe its my perspective of 'true' that is flawed.

or maybe its my friends that see it differently.

or maybe its cus i just don't deserve the 'true' treatment.



its saddening if its the latter,

since i've put in so much effort being true to my friends.

and they are actually the crucial ones keeping me alive.

i thought abt it,

maybe faking or being superficial aren't that bad afterall.




sometimes u don't exactly have to be true to yourself,

sometimes, u can't even tell between the two...




i just want a new start,

is that considered giving up?

好想放弃一切，

再好好的爱你...






不要放弃我，
求你不要放弃我...




不要放弃你自己.

im feeling hot all over and maybe still a little drunk from today lol

somewhat i wish i remain drunk so my conscious mode remains on today...

SUO 09 marked one of the last big frisbee events that i'll be able to attend till several months after, or even the last time im touching the disc, running out the field, cut, get the disc, assist and score in a pick-up.

all the sun burned, heat, disappointment from not being able to get the SUO disc was somewhat worthed it, cus never once were u be able to gather so many people with similar passion in frisbee to compete and fight with their spirits and it feels kind of special being part of this small group who are all involved in a not-very-well-known sport.

the field was way better then last year lol, last year's was muddy, and i mean REAL muddy but they picked a much cooler and open field this year at Farmway... feels more official too, cus they marked out the fields in white and surrounded with tape too to keep off non players from clogging the sidelines. and there was subway for lunch! LOL

stayed with Lagi Shiok for most of the time, wanted to support Raphael cus he was the capt! =D seemed a little stressed too, no doubt abt it. but they played well and won all of the games, especially well played in the one against SMU. in the beggining they were lagging behind (no wonder is LAGi shiok lol) and losing the momentum while SMU was controlling the game and managed to lead. but soon after, they gain back their stride and wen on high in no time, scoring like nobody's business, calehand (is that how u spell?), layout D, layout score, u name it, they did it all. absolutely wonderful play....

finals was mochi vs the philipines, mochi was lagging behind at first by quite a bit and the philipines were abt to win the match but mochi caught up all the way and clinched 1st place for Singapore Ultimate Opens 2009. was supporting mochi cus they really quite zai, their team barely had subs (like only 1 or 2) and the played all the way, evertually winning the game. they deserve it man! =D

oh then they was this amusing part where some crazy angmoh come show off his butt right in front of the whole crowd during one of the timeout while another try to hit it with a disc lol! foreigners are definitely more crazy but u can see after the matches, theres no such thing as which club u belong to or wadever team, everyone jus have hug together, take photos together, drink up together, thats the best part of SUO: its when pple of different races, countries, teams, clubs, character all come together to drink beer and play frisbee =)

oh and talking abt drinking beer, i actually got a little drunk, after like only half a cup lol and probably a bit of tthe heat i guess, felt a little heavy in the head and drowsy, scary! oh man need to train my jiu liang or else nex time how to go pubs! and go for SUO oso, the people there drink by tubs!!!

well along with the happy stuff always comes along the not so happy stuff, nearly lost the disc i just bought but managed to find it back cus of everyone thanks!!! could tell everyone and i mean everyone put in a little part to find my disc, everntually finding it at the lost and found tent... cus i was a little down la (duh after losing a disc u will feel high and happy meh?) and still a little drunk i guess, thats why looked a little emo lol but still thanks so much everyone!!!!

going today made me realise sth too.

its so hard to find someone who actually share the exact same interest and passion and the same extent too.
and people can actually change so much just bcus of one person.

i jus can't believe how people can actually completely change their mindset or willing to follow one person completely, no matter whether its the mindset, character, thinking, everything changes bcus of one person. its like being held by the nose, and like a dog, willing to be taken anywhere and doesn't have its own thinking at all.

willing to sacrifise for and give up everything for one person is one thing, having one's own thinking, opinion and mindset is another. if not, you're just like a person without a soul, unable to do anything or make any decision by yourself, u just follow where the person goes.

i despise such people though. im a person who pretty much is very persistant in my thinking and very firm in my stand. some pple call it subborn, but it is wad that make me me. i will not want to get influenced so easily and change my pov so easily for one person, just to please him/her. i have my own set of thinking, and it will not get influenced unless wad the other person said actually make sense.

of cus, people have different priorities, and you can't force people to change them, its just impossible. but it just sucks when u realise they have completely diff priorities from what u think. cus while u tot u had the same passion, same spirit fighing together, the nex moment u realise they actually dont much heck care abt it.

i guess in this case, the only kind of pple whom i will suit is those who actually shares similar mindsets. its hard to find such a person, way too hard, which is probably why they said its tough and extremely lucky to find the person right for you. if i were ever to find such a person, i don't think i'll ever want to let go. but thats if i were to ever to find him that is...

guess this is wad they really call as 心灵相通...

just saw this damn cool article that i've just got to post cus its so true even for us!

America wins gold! In frisbee.

Did you know the US has the world's best ultimate team? You're not alone.

Credits to shifu! highlighted all those points that are so so true! my god, i just can't agree more. its pretty surprising to know that the sport is not even very recognised in US itself, the motherland of Ultimate Frisbee. its amazing to have pple in the same sport feeling exactly the way u felt, its like all the frisbee players from all over the world belong to one huge family, though we hardly even noe each other's existence... and isn't the sport simply unique, having no referee at all? its probably the only team sport that emphasize on sportmanship so much that referees are prohibited lol. Spirit Of The Game!

Ultimate Frisbee is like any other sports and it shud be treated like any other sports. being treated like any other sport would not mean having to be included as one of the competing events in the Olympics, but rather being recognised as a compeitive sport instead of a receational one where u jus throw around by the beach.



with the Singapore Ultimate Opens coming up, i can't help but feel that overwhelming passion all over again. its better than a soccer game trust me LOL.

to add on, 'Our Sunday games coincide with National Day festivities that the Prime Minister is attending as the guest of honour. As such, everyone is commanded (strongly requested, begged) to be on their best behaviour both on and off the field. Failure to do so will surely result in impending doom for the Singapore Ultimate community and for the future of this tournament in general. On the bright side, if the PM likes what he sees Ultimate may very well be instituted as the new national sport!' - Singapore Ultimate on SUO

COOLIOS!

quoting from yet another dedicated flicker,

"Loving is like laying out. You get may hurt in the process but you feel great nonetheless." Chen Yong Quan (2009)

Ultimate Frisbee for the win! =D

felt terrible today =(
especially after scholarship's day.

it was supposed to be a fun day, cus its like 'funfair' to us, somewhat lol or shopping fair, shopping for suitable scholarships and coping all the freebies... plus todays lesson ultra slack, only got two lectures.

wen early during break to see see in the hall, and avoid the crowd later in the afternoon, found the few organisations i was interested in pretty easily and got the info i wanted. but they aren't exactly veh satisfying... was tinking of Astar, but the studying period plus bond already took up more one decade O.o plus the part abt having to be in the laboratory 24/7 totally turned me off, and most of the time u are proving wad stupid hypothesis like. 'why hc's math tutors are more likely to get pregnant?!' totally not my type.

was looking for a science scholarship, leaning towards biomedical area, best if its research on stem cell, cures for new virus or diseases etc etc, but definitely not that intense research -.- had thoughts abt medicine but its like trying to reach and touch the sky, sth i really wan but highly unachievable =(

then i started outsourcing to other organisations, such as the air transport, maritime and even the moe sector, cus they offer scholarships to overseas uni and the bonds length are somewhat similar for most of the organisations. i realised even you were interested in sciences and were to go deeper into it, there aren't much job opportunities except research. maybe medical and dentistry for bio, which are the high high up there de courses reserved for straight As students and those who come from a wealthy background. trying to get scholarship for medical? i tink dreaming abt it is way easier...

i sort of had my ideal career planned out, but building up the pathway there is the one that's tough...

i was thinking of becoming a uni lecturer specialising in biology. i want to inspire pple in biology like how i was inspired. plus if its uni lecturer, its much lesser work and more free time to do my own research, then i might even be able to come up with my own book. my ideal job, and it would be perfection if i could be lecturer in overseas uni. haha quite a dream yeah. i dunno why but i jus haf the thinking that i will be able to broaden my career and more freedom to do what i want overseas. plus if i were to do my own research, overseas uni would be provide me with vast amount of information to assist my research.

but now im already stuck at the part trying to find ways to go overseas and study =(


putting that aside, wen bugis today with lily and sarah to shop, in the end i was the only one who bought stuff again. sorry for being so depressed earlier, was stressing over the scholarship stuff roar.

somewhat i can relax myself better ard frisbee pple and tend to forget all these stuff. now the fishtank became our regular meeting area for gossips and stuff like today, reading through the juniors' application form for frisbee ExCo =D

its damn fun to read their really, cus they really dare to tell you EVERYTHING. hah even though some of them are damn quiet during trnings and you wld nvr expect them to say this kind of things, enjoyed reading the 'essays' too, can tell they are damn 'passionate' abt frisbee LOL

somewhat in frisbee, theres a equal split of pple that i classify as 'bad' friends who always distract me, like the j1s are so laxing obviously cus they are not having their As this year and forever flicking by the right wing; yong sijie who can NVR concentrate on his mugging whenever they are pple flicking by the side (dun tink he will either even if there isn't anyone there -.-), marcus quek who always call me over to talk abt stuff and fall asleep even b4 i do when it comes to mugging (i tot i was bad enuff -.-).

and of cus there are the 'good' friends who keep nagging and nagging by my ear to mug like liu bao bao, absolutely like my second mum, 24/7 naggin me to mug her mouth oso wun dry, and zelia too, and sometimes its not that bad cus i actually am veh worried abt my work, they kind of relieve my stress by mugging wif me and knowing me, im unlike licoln cheng who can throw all temptations aside and forever stuck at his class bench mugging during every break and vanishes right after sch, either to date, to mug or to fish-.- wad a life.

yeah. so the frisbee pple are coolios. tmr is interview session. we are going to terrorise them by sitting in a circle-shaped pannel =) lets be ready to zam pple! =DDDDDDD

i dun even noe where to start,
maybe start by biting my medal to see if its real? =D

well of cus its real, cus...


Hwachong Ultimate Frisbee team has finally proven themselves by WINNING THIRD IN INTER-JC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


from las year's experience, we had always wanted to win bac sth for the sch. to prove to those who looked down on us, those who think we're just a noob and recreational club, those who nvr recognise us or our hard work, those who wld nvr think that we wld actually be victorious one day.

if only these pple were there to see the comps yesterday, they were the best matches i've seen in my whole frisbee life ever since it started in year 1, even better than SUO hah maybe cus im actually part of it myself.

and not long b4 the day itself, we had to shock and realisation that the whole thing might be cancelled, bringing us on a emotional roller coaster, leaving many of us extremely unstable, including myself, i jus cried it all out the night b4. but miraculously, they've given us another chance, and we're bac on the track to prove ourselves and the outing that friday night brought us all back together as a team again, after so much psychological trauma...

the day itself many of us were obviously nervous, but we were all out to fight as a team, for real.

first match wen pretty smoothly, and i got a stat for the first time in all the official comps i was in, a D! WOO! damn happy, made a few nice dumbs and passes down too, really glad that i was contributing to the team =D, won 10-1 successfully with ACJC (B) team. for the first time we can say we won ACJC! =X lol

second match was up against RJC (A) whom we had a friendly with and got thrashed few weeks ago but we still fought. it was the best match ever, cus we started to catch up from 1-5 (to them) and for every point our team scored, as advised by raphael, everyone from the sidelines all ran in to high five with the team, and it really did miracles. we continued our scoring to the final 5-6. though we lost, we felt as if we won, cus we fought well, and that brought both RJC and HCJC teams even closer. and we've proven to the rest how we wun be beaten that easily.

we were up against tough compeition in the nex match against ACJC team A and lost 3-9, affected us quite a bit in the nex match against our own team cus if we had won that match, we wld go straight to finals. but nonetheless, we won the final match against RJC team B, winning third. and of cus everyone can't forget that spectacular last point being scored cus sijie did the perfect layout for it. and everyone jus ran in to hug him hahahah! the greatest moment, i nearly burst out into tears...

MVP girl wen to pearlyn, who really deserved it for giving her all to team 2, zhen zhu u rawk! dream team had sijie (no doubt abt it!) and LILY!!!! haha we were clearly surprised including herself LOL! but heres why i tink she totally deserve that award:

♠ xinmei said:
she was playing popper or mids most of the time
a position she played rarely during normal training
but she slowly adapted and played well after dat
which is why i tink she deserve that awards
no other girl wld haf caught a high hammer plus layout in the mud to get the disc
somemore is not jus once
trust me
i wun deny that shes a better player than me
really
lol which is why im damn proud of her
=D

and why i tot raphael was an amazing coach:

♠xinmei said:
i finally understand why he sort of
trained the j1s and neglected us during the sat west coast trning
the j1s needed guiding cus they jus started
on the other hand, we as the j2s
had experienced so much,
we are able to learn and deduce stuff by ourselves
really, which is why we improved so much without his help
and he oso did guided us at the start
he knew we could improve by ourselves

Marcus said:
we improved so much is because of our desire to learn
but the j1s dont have tht

♠xinmei said:
and that desire to learn was partially inspired by him isn't it?
we cannot deny that he was part of the reason why we were so determined as a team to win
and that he was the one who brought us together
but now it is the j1s that is lacking all that

Marcus said:
you know his memory and observation skills are damn good
yeah he damn zai lah..make us feel damn inspired..and ready to fight back
he can like rmb alot of names and faces after just awhile
and he can observe a match for 10mins and know the weaknesses of the team

♠xinmei said:
its quite amazing that
although he nvr appeared for 90% of our trnings,
or sometimes even comps,
we nvr hated him or anything
and still treasure him and love him damn a lot
and damn excited each time we see him
then all that hatred and rantings abt him not helping us disappears that very second


paiseh, have been msning marcus and realised a lot of things that we said were so true and lots of emotions run through while we said them too.

its as if everything has restarted, we met each other for the first time for the first official frisbee trning with the snrs, dun even noe who wen or who was there, we just played, all the way till we are playing so well as a team now. we've been through so much, from bare nothing to wad we are now. its really unbelievable...

i still can roughly remember my first trning, while mos of the rest had already joined...

i remember LINCOLN from being called as the only handler during drills, though we dun even noe wth a handler does at that time, and also the monkey with such long hands and jumps with such great displacement, who always emerged out of nowhere to grab the disc in the air. the one whom i held great respect for his calm attitude when it comes to difficult situations, an impressive captain indeed...

Thanks linky winky! =D


i remember MARCUS as the one dreaming to be the 'ultimate' frisbee player, reciting all the imaginations he had abt the perfect catch, throw and layout, which had really come true with his amazing abilities now and of cus all the lame and horny jokes hah. and the one whom i share a love-hate relationship with, but i can say hes no doubt one of my best friends and how we think alike sometimes is jus simpy incredible. that great passion he had for frisbee and how he could always bring out the team spirit in us, proved how great a captain he was...

Thanks marc quek! =D


i remember ZHIYANG who was probably the first guy who practise flicking with me and who thought i was a damn tall girl, and of cus his imba improvement ever since winter league, from wad everyone niao him as 'shit' to become such a fantastic handler. im always impressed at his temper, and how he can take all the niaos and suaning from us with a pinch of salt, and nvr really did burst out, nvr bcus of us...

Thanks pi yang! =D


i remember SIJIE as the damn zai player whom i din exactly haf a impression of him at first but improved by leaps and bounce and done us all proud by being the only one recognised for the national youth team, and of cus as my zai shifu, whom i haf learned a lot of things from, whether its regarding frisbee or other stuff, always approachable and so easy to talk with, its as if he had been our sister all along hah. forgive us for niaoing u so much abt ur colour, its too unique lol...

Thanks shifu! =D


i remember yu zheng as the one always coming up with all sort of tricks, no matter is with coins or discs, hes always the one bringing extra entertainment to us, and as the crazy pti, but we've got to admit our stamina had improved cus of him. till now he hasn't gotten rid of his habit of speaking chinese, and i tink we all kind of got influenced by this china man somewhat, credits to him, we'll nvr forget how to speak chinese even after jc...

Thanks zheng zheng! HAHA! =D


i remember KANZY and YANG XUAN as the imba skying and scoring pair, with no doubts, they work with imba mo qi and such great desire for the disc, even with a strong passion, i doubt i can reach their level. we owe damn a lot to them, cus they play as if they would die for the team, even if it were the most impossible catch or D, they were there to save it. i can't even remember how many umpteen times they got injured for us, that spirit is jus simply unbelievable...

Thanks kanzy and yangxuan! =D


i remember YIDING as the one who never gave up, and improved a lot too, along with the team, always there with us and always fighting with us, it was that undying spirit and desire to fight for the team that was really admirable. and of cus his imba A for econs LOL and the only one from art class (if im not wrong), bring new insights and ideas to the team and always able to crack the team up by saying really hilarous stuff at times...

Thanks yiding! =D


i remember LILY as the only in the same class and CCA as me, my best of friends no doubt, always there for me whenever i had mood swings, the one i wld first approach when im feeling moody, whether is abt frisbee, class or some cute guy HAH. the one i will always disturb during classes, and helped me in a lot of my saikang in frisbee as well. oso as my other handler, always worrying for the team together and discussing how we can improve ourselves to help the team and the another one who contributed to the multi-races in our team...

Thanks and i love ya, sister! =D


i remember JINGYI as the one whom i had only been closer with recently, the one who wld always hear me rant, and gossip with me as well lol, the things she said always made so much sense no matter how much u disagree with it, of cus as a player, she nvr failed to surprise us with wad she can do and as my 'mum' always nagging me and the rest of the team to mug during exams. theres no doubt shes my shifu for sch work, the next few months jiu kao ni le...

Thanks liu bao bao! =D


i remember ZELIA as the one who had similar interest with me in manga, cosplays, and it was great and definitely treasurable (is there such a word?) to find such a friend. we can go crazy and giggle like little girls during random conversations and i've gotten great advice from her too, and oso my other handler, and the most organised secretory i've seen, definitely did the mos saikang for the team and yet not a single bit of complaints...

Thanks zelia! =D


i remember E-HUI as my og mate, whom i share similar interests with too, in Kpop and the 'high' girl, who could always hype us up with her cheery attitude and friendliness even though it was the first time meeting each other. shes the one who connected the j2s with the j1s and bonded us together and of cus our imba end-zone scorer...

Thanks e-hui! =D


i remember PEARLYN as the small and cute gurl, who is totally different from her appearance, being much more matured and able to pick up great responsibilities. and the mrs toh lookalike, haha another sch work expert and always approachable, shes yet another one i can get high with within seconds into the conver...

Thanks zhen zhu! =D


Thanks to Danette, Cynthia and Jiaming, you've been amazing j1s who improved so much such that i dun even see u guys as j1s, i see u as team mates, with equal abilities with the j2s. and to all the rest of the j1s, i really wish all of us wld continue to fight for the team and achieve even better results for this club which is barely two years old and finally make it an official and recognised cca.

wow that took quite some time, but it was worth it, so much to remember, so much to treasure. its as if it nvr started and nvr ended. okay i shan't be so long winded and end this soon, it jus can't seem to stop u see, theres so much to say.

ultimately...

Hwachong Ultimate Frisbee is LOVE! 
Huck, handle, dump, cut, pancake, fumble, sky, D, disc in, layout, SCORE!!!!!!

We've gone though so much and we've done it all.


The HCult spirit WILL live on.

absolutely the most drama and crazy day.


the thing that we have been preparing and waiting for more than 1 and a half year, might be just gone like nobody's business.

and there i was wishing that it won't end so early. now it might be ending sooner than i thought.


pray pls pple. now we really need a miracle.

i can't believe it.
there are a lot of siao things that happened today.

one of which jus happened a few mins ago...

MY MUM BEGGED ME TO GO FIND BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!

wtssssssss. while other pple's parents are like not approving them of a relationship, my mum wans me to be in one -.- say wad can make me mug together or maybe find the next president or sth. and obviously shes veh well informed on who's SON is in the same sch as i am. zzz i can't believe she really suggested that WTH?!

well, stop laughing, let me continue with my story.

then currently another crazy thing is happening: Im playing mousehunt!
oh wells, i got bored. u noe is that kind right after exams then suddenly nth to do cus no need to mug lol (but im suppose to haf started mugging for prelims which is like in less than two months' time ROAR)

oh then today, we got back three papers, or rather 1 and 2/3 subj lol. math as usual was not at my best. the simpler qns all i forget how to do, like the stupid binomial qns (qns 2) WTS la. i actually expanded the square and tried to do long division wad the hell is my problem man.

got bac chem paper 3 too and i was damn high after that cus I GOT A DOUBLE DIGIT WOOHOO!!!!
lol seriously it was dat bad i tot i wld get a single digit =.= cus apparently i din study organic chem at all so its like nearly half the marks gone liao cus i jus leave all the organic chem qns blank zzz. but i got 24!!!!! wts i reached my goal of 20+ marks can. imagine if i managed to mug organic chem, i'll own man =DDDD

chem paper 1 sucked. the last 5 qns i jus anyhow shade =( cus like near the end i only left 5 mins for like 10 qns while some idiot like LIU JINGYI had 5 mins spare time leftover and got twice my marks zzz (and no she din get full marks which means i failed the paper RAH)

yep my totally cool and dramatic official first day of sch. the fun hasn't ended!

after sch wen wif frisbee pple to eat lunch at high sch. missed the guo tiao mian stall! =D after dat flicked awhile in the area outside audi then wen home. and i din exactly reached home...

zhiyang and yangxuan was damn nice to haf waited with me for 852, but apparently 6 bus 74 passed by but 852 lagged =X then yu zheng came along and decided to follow us go eat too. then after we board the bus right, right behind tagged another 2 bus 74 LOL! ultra suay day.

wen amk there to eat their beloved satay beehoon and walked ard the shops there. i din noe 'shopping' with guys can be so interesting... they do absolutely retarded stuff like how they acted out the 'dejavu' scene when we passed by the bus interchange for the 2nd time wts and they were damn enthu abt it, especially zy. yz has already been affected by the retarded-high-school-boys disease. a normal boy become like dat haiz, jus like wad i've told jy, damn sad ah!

oh btw liu bao bao, i bought part of ur present liao LOL u better like it =D (prob is i dunno wad the other part will be =X)


2 more days, 48 more hours. i dun wan it to end that fast yet.

2 more days...

or rather, 2 more weeks. that is wad im more concerned abt...

the official last trning today, ran 10 rounds for pt. wasn't exactly tiring la, cus i was jogging =X but the sun was crazy.

i tink im reaching my peak in frisbee or maybe jus performing up to standard, as in like dun haf any off days so far, im desperately praying that i wun kena my off day during interjc, thats the worst timing so pls pls pls pls pls pls noooo!

im glad i finally starting to learn stuff and improving bit by bit, though its the las trning but its better than nothing. learned how to fake properly, throw into space, run as a handler... i decided i shall not stone there and let the guys do the job of cutting and running, even the handlers, so i ran too and i managed to do a upfront cut and get the disc woohoo =D

new boots! its amazing, love the blue!!! and im pretty sure it'll be my most supportive companion for the big event two weeks later! i set my goal le. i shall attempt to layout on interjc day and huck-assist!

talking abt scoring, i nearly scored today! its been frigging long since i last scored, since im handler, got to touch the disc more but can't score then today cus near end zone then jiaming was handling, then some what i jus run in end zone and try to get his dump, jumped twice but stiill landed outside wts ROAR.

mugging in sch is pretty effective, provided u dun sleep LOL and dun mug with the j1s.

was mugging with jingyi, oh did i say she is my god! hahah and my mum, so become god mum cus she always nag me go mug then mug with her somewhat veh effective. then she will gif me short summary which are damn useful you rock man liu bao bao! =D

then after she left i wen over to the j1s bench with jasmine, jiaming, shengjie and weijie. wts jiaming is frigging distracting, hes not even muggin la! then keep chanting by my ear, 'sure fail sure fail la, go home!' zzz

oh then after dat came bac i bought a new baggg! its the crumpler type of bag and the colours are coolios! mus check it out pple, i've got good taste.

oh and might be changing specs tmr cus mine is damn scratched. shall get a damn AA one LOL! kay la few things im looking forward to. anyways blocks im already screwed so i heck liao. but im determined to start practising papers after blocks and interjc, i wan to get the course i wan or even get a scholarship to go overseas. that is seriously the only thing i will be working hard for.  

im in love with this guy...



KIM KYU JONG!

hes from SS501 and yes i started to notice them from Boys Over Flowers... but while everyone else are going crazy over the leader, i noticed this cute guy inside =)

and hes hell friendly in real! as in hes really damn kind and nice person. everytime share food with others, think of others b4 him, help his members when they're in trouble etc etc.

thats why im in love wif him! and he looks frigging hot with the eye liner =DDDD

wa i realise i damn frigging long nvr post anything liao =X

is not cus i din wan to post! but is everytime i post halfway then i'll go surf other stuff then gif up on posting zzz


the hols has been erm... fast. LOL almos half is gone and i haven really started my revision DAMN! and im like going to 3D2N chalet tmr ROAR. i swear im goanna bring my mugging stuff along like duh...

got pool party leh i tink? is private chalet so we get to do a lot of stuff FUN FUN! =D a bit awkward for me cus im not exactly from shooting and jus happen to know quite a few of them then always tag along during their outings =X hope the rest dun mind...

todays trning was not bad =) it was good pt cus i had ,my butt cramps again LOL and im glad everyones bac to normal i tink? from i hear when i jus came bac from malaysia was scary really. but like todays talk at serene's, i guess we all realise how much we've gone through and how much this means to us. and its like coming in barely 3 weeks?

and i was telling cynthia that if we really did well and won something on that day, i really will cry.

then marcus who was beside said, ''if we didn't win something, I'll cry!''

haha which i tot, yeah quite true. from in the beginning when we gathered together from all sort of places, through friendlies, pvp, ivp, winter league, acsi, hat until the recent and approaching last match for summer league, we've grown so much. and with so much more confidence and determination to win. everything, for this final battle.

previously i had started to worry abt everything ending. in terms like after interjc, there will be no more frisbee. kinda scary for me, cus frisbee is really a huge part of my life. even if it were to leave me, i will stick myself to it no matter wad. the qns is, where do we go next? join local teams like shiok? join uni teams like muddygrass? form our own team, eat disc?

but now, all these things are to be thrown way to the back of our heads. cus wad is crucial is wad is in front of us. and i dun tink i wan to regret not playing to our best.


we will march to the battle field with our heads held high.
we will fight to the very end like theres no tomorrow.


cus if this is the last chance to play in an competition officially as a team, i will nvr want to leave any regrets.